This week I was a counselor/nurse. I went in on Sunday to help with assessing the kids and gathering their medications Monday morning during registration. I wasn't sure how the week would go mainly because I didn't really know what to expect with the whole double role thing, but I was excited to be able to counsel even a little. The girls in our cabin were really great, the first time we did devotions they had amazing questions and were engaged the whole time. I was really surprised and excited about this.
The hardest thing for me this week was trying to balance my job as nurse and counselor. I hated leaving the cabin early to get ready for medications and having to leave an activity with my cabin to help take care of a camper or coming late to our cabin devotions because I was administering a medication. It wasn't that I didn't enjoy the nursing side of it all, I did (I loved taking care of the kids in a physical way and to be able to talk with them about themselves and share with them even in those short moments of putting a band-aide on a cut), it was more that I didn't like being torn between two things.
We talked a lot about boasting in the Lord and nothing else and that we should desire nothing more in this life but an intimate relationship with Christ. Psalm 73:23-26 says, "Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." A question the speaker gave us to think about was, "Would you want to go to heaven if God wasn't there?" This was something I thought about a lot over the week. Is my desire to go to heaven because God is there or is it to get away from this sinful world for my own sake? I would want to be quick to say, of course I wouldn't want to go if God wasn't there, but is that really true deep down? At times I don't act like that is true in my heart. Father, You are continuously seeking me and desiring to have an intimate relationship with You, help me to desire the same, day after day.
I saw God working in the heart of one of my campers and she told me she prayed and asked God into her life one night during the week. I was so happy and I prayed with her and talked more with her just about what that means and how amazing that is for her. It's always hard seeing the kids leave at the end of the week because you know some of what they are going back to and that many of them do not have support where they live and really have no way of growing in their faith other than on their own. But then God reminds me time and time again that they are not alone and that He has them right where He wants them. It's not our job to save them, we are here to be God's vessels and share the truth with them and see how God uses us. He doesn't need us, but He allows us to join Him in His mission. Thank you Lord for that.
We had a couple counselors sick this week and just some strange things going around. Prayer for their health would be wonderful. Thanks for your continued support and prayers. God is doing great things here and all over the world; we just need to take the time to actually see where He's working and join Him in that work.
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